Y Saturday, September 19, 2009
10:13 pm
The boys are at Daniel's playing poker, it's odd how I didn't join them, but the reason's simple. I like poker, it's one of the few card games I actually like and play a little. But poker doesn't like me, so spectating is all I do, and poker isn't exactly a spectator friendly game.Can't get too involved because it's sensitive, but it gets boring staying out and watching for too long, so I decided to meet bfoo, which, due to.. minor technicalities which were sorted out, resulted in me being late in meeting him.
Of course the blighter didn't mind, he had a free dinner and drink thrown in. Lucky bastard!
I've just been reminded of something, and it's that you can prepare for all outcomes, replay every scenario in your mind and deal with them. It's not a problem, at all. Not as if you'd be taken aback or unhappy at any of the outcomes. Everything's laid out, and you wait, look on, satisfied at what you've done.
Then y'know, the unexpected happens, as it always does. Should have seen it coming right? Yeah, Murphy's Law. What can happen will happen. It's not intrinsically good or bad, it just happens.
This time though, I can't help but to feel it's a bad way out. Not an outcome I like. At all.
Well you know what they say. Could haves, should haves, if onlys, maybes. Won't brood over what's done or can't be changed, though any of the probable, planned outcomes are better than what have happened, but when you're being pushed away there's not much you can do except hope and leave the hand outstretched.