Y Monday, May 18, 2009
12:08 am
The past has a nasty habit of catching up with you. It's like this huge gaping hole - no matter how far, how fast you run, it's edges are always, always yawning at your heels. It demands you stop, turn around and face it. That's about the only way closure of any kind is gonna start.I don't think I've taken the 180 yet, but I've stopped.
Yes, I went to the TJCO concert. I'll admit I'm not music literate person, neither am I talented in any of its numerous and broad facets. Just like any ordinary person who's there to support a bunch of friends. Some songs were great, because I knew them, others not so.
But above all I was really reminded how I loved being on stage with an orchestra, your teammates that made it all possible. Really, hundreds of hours all for 20 minutes of stage time. Disproportionate, I know. But I miss it nevertheless.
"So join an external orchestra."
Thanks but no thanks. Something about being in a school-based one that makes it different.
Today another shard of the past reared its head and gleaned temptingly, beckoning me to step closer.
I postulate it to be a trap.
A heart of gold but it lost its pride.
I've seen your face in another light.