Y Monday, February 02, 2009
12:06 am
"Weekends are like godsends, and I treasure every moment I get. Sunday nights are the worst shit ever.Oh crap, another few hours before I have to go. QQ. But I don't wanna sleep! When I wake up it's time to haul ass back there. WTF.
Yes I'm unhappy. No I don't really care if I leave behind a mess. It sucks in there, I want to get out."
Yeah I wrote that. Almost a year ago. Nothing's changed, nothing much anyway. No, not one step forward two steps backwards, it's no steps at all.
It's a Sunday night, and I should be sleeping. But guess what, the dread feeling of school is still welling up somewhere it inside me. I should stop fucking kidding myself. It still sucks.
Not a very happy person, am I? It's tough. I've never really felt happy at all in CJ. Maybe I did, but it never really came close to back in VS. Reading the older posts just made me want to go back in time. We all know that ain't possible. Fuck this.
On an unrelated note, Happy birthday Han shen.