Y Thursday, June 12, 2008
12:22 am
Just a.. minor post.Sometimes, I fucking hate to visit the blogs of other 4F people, or talk to them. Just when I thought, "I miss them, but I can take it. I love them all the same, but I won't lose my head thinking about them." it all comes crumbling down. I could be high, or maybe I'm just sleepy and not thinking straight. But hell.
Like Jarrett says, I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
You know, it's almost like a breakup with a girl that's perfect for you, and you've been at it for so long, too. Heart-wrenching and something you can never really forget. You think you've gotten the fuck over it, but it never really happens. You still miss her like crazy.
I asked a CJ classmate if he felt a sense of belonging.. he said he doesn't, not to CJ, not to any school. It's just so bloody sad.
It's not just the class, it's the teachers too. KC, Baby Z, Thiru, Kwok, Dao Wai Lit and not forgetting Mdm Tang. Perfect blend of... it's perfect. So it's everything right, wrong, and in general, just there. Everything.
I'm biased, I know. Your class is probably better than mine, and your teachers too. But I don't care, I just want to shout it out because I can, even though no one will care, even though it's stupid, but because I want to.
More than that, I love VS too much to give it up. It's been half a year, and I've only grown to miss the old days more and more. How do you understand and accept that which was lost? By finding a never-adequate replacement? By letting the sands of time ravage your memories and numb your feelings? I don't want that to happen, no.
Vive, Viva, Viva-La-Victoria.
Please, Victorians, keep her flag unfurled.
I want so much to go back to the home I belong to.. and maybe, maybe, with you there.