Y Saturday, June 14, 2008
12:42 am
It's odd really. Sometimes you just have so much you want to say, but when you actually get the opportunity to do it... it just eludes you. But that feeling's still there, the need to share. Again, strangely enough, I don't feel annoyed in the least bit.The hell. I'm rambling.
Let's try to put something out...
Basically, I've just felt something.. for the lack of a better word, weird. A combination of guilt and anxiety. Why? Now here's the queerest part of it all. I was doing kara and getting very VERY pissed about it, over stupid wipes.
So yeah, I was on MSN with Gresilda and told her I was feeling ragey and stuff, over WoW, and basically couldn't calm down. (Despite her repeated efforts to calm me down.)
Then she just went "I don't know why you're not studying, our exams are close and I study more than you, and yet I'm still more worried. You know what, just ignore what I said. Maybe you're smarter and need to study less."
It hit home. I might have taken it out of context, or maybe she didn't mean it to have that effect, but whatever it was, it hit home. Yeah.
Really, what the fuck have I been doing all holidays.. god. To put it simply, I really have to get something done.