Y Thursday, April 17, 2008
10:27 pm
Yeah so today I got chewed on the ass non-stop by my mum for being an hour late for tuition, poor tutor had to wait and crap.Been rocky, like real bad. Mum wants to eat me because I yelled at her sometime back. Life's been shitty.
One missed day of school led to a session with the VP because I got real effin smart and was honest with my home tutor. She ended up ratting me out. Bullshit. Called my dad (fucking hell first time in eons) and that was it. I totally started mindfucking myself for the rest of the day.
Honestly how'd it all come to this stage?
I'm from a top secondary school. Below average results, but still.
"uʍop əpỊsdn pəuɹnʇ ´pəddỊlɟ ʇoნ əɟỊl ʎɯ ʍoɥ ʇnoqɐ llɐ ʎɹoʇs ɐ sỊ sỊɥʇ ʍoN"
Sums up how I feel.
So yeah, I watched the soccer match between VJ and CJ. Odd, I wore the CJ uniform and went to cheer VJ, but I don't care. My friends play in the VJ team. That's all that matters.
It may have the V brand on it, but it sure as hell ain't no VS. Two different schools. I'd say the school spirit is dead. You just don't get another VS. No fuckin way.
I swear sometimes I'm around with old friends, especially with my old class, things just fall into place so easily. I'm really myself. We let go, talk shit, cuss at each other's mums.. everything. I miss those guys like hell, really I do. Honestly, what I'd give to have my old days back.
To be honest, I hate this inert shell of myself now. It's empty, it lives in the past and just plain ain't me. As they always say, live a facade for too long and soon it's a facade no longer, but the new you. They keep me sane, what little contact I have with them.
For that hour or so, yeah. Felt like the old times were back. It was great, if only for awhile.
What I'd give... really.. what I'd give..
We don't return to you mother, for we have never truly left. Thy sons are we, thy sons we will be.