Y Sunday, February 17, 2008
12:21 am
Fuck it.I mean seriously, fuck it.
I gave up a visit to an old friend's place because of certain commitments. That's fine, I mean many of you may feel commitment to a game is stupid, but fact is, you've promised your time to 24 or more other people, and a lot of others are counting on the attendance of all to keep their faith in the guild.
Next, I was forced to do something I didn't prefer to do. Okay. It's fine and dandy, I mean it. If it's for the greater good, why not. My dad once told me, even if he was a cleaner, he'd make sure he'll be the best cleaner there is, and do his job well. And I did. Outperformed other experienced healers even with my subpar gear.
Then I get royally fucked over because I don't prefer to do what others want me to do. I'm treated as if I'm not important, can be just glanced over, tossed around at whatever corner or empty space there is. A second rate piece of crap, in other words.
I put my fucking time in this guild, get the members, keep the members together, mediate conflicts, relay information, and even basically "be there" so people know the guild is alive. I don't wear the officer tag for fucking nothing. One bitchy officer can just fuck things up royally.
It's really difficult when you see other people criticizing your friends whom you KNOW play well and made some honest mistakes, yet they keep harping on it like it's the fucking crime of the century. If you guys are reading this, yeah, I really try to stand up for you over on officer chat. But sometimes even I can't take it and feel like hitting someone. Sorry Bfoo.
Granted, she's toned down a lot more now, but really, I can't stand for this much longer. It's my 25 fucking bucks a month. I play it the way I want to. Anymore of this and you can kiss your sorry guild good bye. I'll be taking all of my friends with me and reform into something where all of us call the shots.
Soured my whole mood for the day. Great.
Next I'm being told the yuan xiao or whatever the fuck that is dinner was being shifted to today. Fucking useless chinese new year crap. Why was I the last to know? It's not possible that I'm not seen around the house.
So I cancel the dinner appointment which was planned since what, a week ago? It was a fancy dinner, Blim's treat, and yeah, the whole gang was going. I tell them at the eleventh minute some donkey balls chinese new year shit snagged me and I can't go.
Again, our relatives were friggin late. Guess what? I'm not waiting. We started dinner and by the time the rest of the relatives arrived, I was well back on my way upstairs and into my room. Can't care for dining with them, really. Maybe make an effort to be earlier next time, instead of being late for the past god knows how many years. Yes, more than 10 years.
Plan in advance. Stick to schedule. It's not hard. I've planned and organized shit for more than 10 people, on top of school and other commitments. It's that hard to coordinate a family? Puh-leeze.
Next my new buddy's girl wants to break up with him, all because he fucking overslept on VfuckingDay and was late for the appointment. Jesus christ.
Goddamnnit. I swear girls are the vilest creatures on earth. So you're willing to rip his heart out because he was late on that day? If it's a anniversary or something I can understand, but for fuck's sake, EVERYONE knows Vday is a overrated, over-hyped, over-commercialized day where businessmen just want to take your fucking money.
Get your head out of your asses, for those of you who think it's a really special day. Really. You must really be plugged full of shit and your brain swapped for bull testicles or a baked potato. If you have to wait for that day to do something special for your loved one(s), then you fail. Just, fail.
So y'all keep whining about how guys are jerks, bastards and ungentlemanly? Hey, take a good look at yourselves first, mmkay? Want to be treated nicely? Want to be cared for? Earn it. You don't deserve it just because you're born female. I know too many like that, and it pisses me off.
He's a goddamn human too. Give him a break. Sometimes you think you just need to close your eyes for 15 minutes, but bam, it totals up to 2 hours.
"Set an alarm, asswipe! You deserve it! It's a very important day!"
So the time you spent together was just worth this? Youshouldhavesetanalarm? Just go run into open traffic and die. Seriously.
The level of the lack of reason, compassion and foresight is amazing.
I've always said I'll wait for someone to prove me wrong? Like I said, time to change stances. They're all the same. GTFO and away from me. Y'all scare the fuck out of me. DIAF, kthx.
PS. Oh, don't bother to tell me I'm wrong. If I wanted your opinion, I'd have asked for it! Opinions are like assholes. Everybody has one. If you want to risk bleeding your ears, then go ahead.
Oh lordy. Never been so clear until now.