Y Thursday, September 27, 2007
5:19 pm
Update.Results: L1R5 after moderation, 17. Just so everyone stops fucking asking.
For the nit pickers. What follows have already been moderated.
English - A2
Chinese - B4
E Maths - A2
A Maths - C5
Hist/SS - A2
Geog - C6
Physics - D7
Chem - A2
I have to take Chinese and A maths into my L1R5. Okay. 17.
It's a marked improvement from 36 points in the mid years, I know. I too was extremely satisfied and relieved when I heard the news in Suntec. (Was out with Darren, Joy and Chester. More on that later.) So I limped around with that light heartedness.
Right until the next day, when I realized how fucking screwed 17 points is. People claimed to have the same amount of points, or around there, but that's unmoderated. 17 point. And let me ask you, what the fuck would you like to do with that? Go to TPJC or SRJC? For 6 weeks, then you change schools. 1 month is probably spent on orientation. After those 6 weeks, you'd probably not see the people you met ever again. So what's the deal?
Some say with a -2 from CCA I can get into SA's arts stream. I highly, highly doubt this bullshit. SAJC is a 8/10 point school. No way can their Arts stream be 16 points. Wish it were. Then I have a safety net for after the Os.
I tried to sleep the shitty feelings off. It never worked. It's like a perpetual nightmare. Ever woke up from a nightmare only to realize you're still dreaming? Yeah. It's fucking scary, frustrating and there's nothing you can do about it.
I'll relate an experience to you.
I was on the bus with MC. He said he was starving, and wanted to have dinner with me. He offered to pay. Funnily, I wasn't really keen. So I was about to reject him, when I "fell" suddenly found myself alone, standing on the same stretch of road the bus was on. Cars and shit were still speeding past, I just stood there like a dummy.
Second thing is, I was dressed in pyjamas, holding a bolster. What the crap? Common sense tells you that at this point of time, you're dreaming. It can't be real. I ran around and started hitting myself and the people at the bus stop.
I just couldn't wake up.
On hind sight, I should have just remained right there. Fuck this shit.