Y Tuesday, February 13, 2007
9:28 pm
I hate dilemmas.See, I've actually planned to take a week long break from everything and anything. Just get home, lunch, WoW, dinner, study, tv and then sleep. Long list, but it's a slacker's life. It was shaping up to be so damn beautiful. Higher you climb, harder you fall.
I fell with all the grace and subtlety of an elephant.
Chairman really wants me to be present for this week's practices. Our bona fide conductor's finally coming back after a few months of R&R because of some idiot's cello polishing crap which he slipped on to facilitate the breaking of his wrist. I really respect the guy. He's awesome. To be honest, I don't think ANY conductor should, would and can put up with us. We're not THAT good and our attitude really sucks.
2 weeks before a major concert and you still get people skipping practices. Big woop.
Back to the point. See what just happened? So now, the choice is my comfort or the good of the orchestra. No wait, that can be simplified. My comfort, or the conductor. Hang on, that's not right.
My comfort, or what I perceive to be right. There.
Humans are selfish. Deal with it.
Anyway, dilemma. I really, really wanna test out for myself how this "one week of nothing but study and play" is going to work out. CAs are here and I'm gonna royally screw Geography up. It's tomorrow and at this time of blogging, I haven't read anything nor payed an ounce of attention during lesson.
I tell myself a fresh start after the CAs. New chapter means a better time to catch up, right? But am I kidding myself? They say there's no better time than now, but this now is at the eleventh hour and fifty ninth minute.
One last try before I decide to drop the subject? I think I'll indulge one last time.